Let It Free!♥

Usually I wrote a poem to express myself. Love poems, Sad poems, Broken poems...
month by month I used to express what I felt in a shape of poems. but lately, I try to express it naturally. I wrote it as I wrote a diary (finally I remember how to write a diary!lolz). day by day, I tell all my secret, something what I feel inside my heart, a little pieces of my life!
I'm tired to be romantic.
I want to free myself! I want to be myself, not being somebody else!

People I Hate The MOST!

1. Agung Budi Bhakti ==> who the hell is he??

He's just one of a man who ever broke my heart. but he's the one I hate the most! he made me cry for almost a month full! he's the one who made me almost doing suicide! I hate him a lot! if u ask me, who is the one I want to kill, the answer is him! Ok, stop talking bout it! it just reminds me to him!

2. Eva Soraya ==> Damn Slut!

She's the one I won't meet anymore! she used to be my friend! but since she stole my bf, the one I wrote #1, I won't know her anymore in my life! she's like any other bitch in around the world who use her trick to get what her want! she had ruined my friend's life, my sister's life, and the worst of all of course she had ruined my life! I will never forgive her for all my life!

3. Neil Sam ==> A Liar!

He's my ex-bf. his origin is from Malaysia. Gosh, he made me blind in love with his fake promise and his sweet words! I was blind for months, like a fool waiting for him to accomplish his promise! he's the one who make me didn't believe in fake world anymore! he hurts me a lot!

4. Wanna be the next?lolz xd

FORGOTTEN!!

it has been so long I never wrote a journal on diary..lolz xd
even, I didnt know where my diary is...:D
so when last sunday I got a free diary, I didnt know how to use it...;)
I forgot how to write a journal...B-)
hmm,,how do I start it now?what shoud I write first?
wow,,I forgot how to write in a paper!!hahaha
I guess my writing is worse than before!xoxoxo
but, I'll try to write a diary from now on!:)

Everyday is a Boring Day!

boring,,boring!!
being jobless is totally boring!!
everyday only looking for job vacancy!!
when this is all over??
I wanna earn much money!!
money,,money,,come to mama!!
who want give me money!!lolz xd

Graduation Day!!

hey!!
finally I did it!!
I've finished my college,,I've graduated my school!!
last saturday on October 2, 2010 I'm officially Fierna Septiana, S.S.
I'm officially Bachelor of Literature!!hurray!!

now, my life has begun..
it's the hardest time of my life to prove myself to the world!!
but I have to do this!!
I have to move on!!
I cant just sit here and wait for a miracle!!
I've to get a good job right away!!

I can see my self in the future!!
my future in London!Lolz xd
hopefully :)

all the best for me n for all my friends in E-Lite 2k6 :)
all the best for us, guys!!:D

You Broke My Heart

as my heart grew hope in you
you dropped my spirit down
telling me you just wanted to be friends
broke my heart in two
my bright blue skies crumble
as your figure fade away
the end of my hope to be with you
came along that day
now that you broke my heart
i'm sinking in my pain
and now my skies dark
like my empty black heart
because you tore me apart

Love Me Once Again

I’m sitting here alone,
Realising your gone,
I know I can’t change things,
I know I was wrong.

They all say I don’t need you,
They all say I’m better off,
They don’t understand I love you,
Yet I never said it enough.

I regret what I did,
But I can’t take it back,
Wish I could hold you,
I want you back.

They said I deserve better,
I know I’m messed up,
But I can’t go on without you,
I miss you so much.

I didn’t realize what I had,
Till I lost you,
My heart bleeds inside,
I can’t forget you.

I know I said it before,

Love me once again,
Tell me everything’s alright,
Tell me it’s not the end.

Impossible

Time goes by…

Days by days…

Minutes by minutes…

I wish I could hold you now…

I wish you can hear my voice…

Feel you were here…

Feel me waiting for you…

Though I knew you won’t be here…

You will never come to me…

All I want is impossible...

Coz I know you are not real…

Still Miss You

sitting lonely again,
thinking bout the way it has been
thought it was love…
though it was true…
then a name came out the blue,
i asked and asked what was his name, then a look of shame,
i asked do you feel the same,
you replies no, as tears fell from my eyes
how can you feel this way after this long?
i loved you from the bottom of my heart
how can you take it and tear it apart?
so now what, what can I do, nothing, but sit here and miss you.

We Are Meant To Be

Your all that I want with me.
Its just you and me in this world meant to be.
I don’t want no one with me,
If we are not meant to be.
Your all my heart has room for me because it’s meant to be.
All I want to be is going for you and me.
So please don’t ever tell me that we can’t be,
Because I’m missing everything that we use to be.
So I’m praying you come back to me.
I know we are meant to be.

London...??

I really wanna go to London!!can my dream be real??when will that gonna happen??
hmm...I must be very patient...
I'm sure that someday my dream will come true...
'n I will live my life there...starting a new life with new neighbors...hehe

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Here lays my heart,
All broken and torn,
There are no feelings left in it,
For me to mourn.

Here lays my mind,
Which has repressed,
All the memories we have shared,
That have left me a mess.

Here lays my soul,
Which you took away,
Along with my faith and trust in you,
That you broke in a day.

Here lays my body,
All fragile and left to die,
I hope that I can get through this,
And find another guy.