FORGOTTEN!!

it has been so long I never wrote a journal on diary..lolz xd
even, I didnt know where my diary is...:D
so when last sunday I got a free diary, I didnt know how to use it...;)
I forgot how to write a journal...B-)
hmm,,how do I start it now?what shoud I write first?
wow,,I forgot how to write in a paper!!hahaha
I guess my writing is worse than before!xoxoxo
but, I'll try to write a diary from now on!:)

Everyday is a Boring Day!

boring,,boring!!
being jobless is totally boring!!
everyday only looking for job vacancy!!
when this is all over??
I wanna earn much money!!
money,,money,,come to mama!!
who want give me money!!lolz xd

Graduation Day!!

hey!!
finally I did it!!
I've finished my college,,I've graduated my school!!
last saturday on October 2, 2010 I'm officially Fierna Septiana, S.S.
I'm officially Bachelor of Literature!!hurray!!

now, my life has begun..
it's the hardest time of my life to prove myself to the world!!
but I have to do this!!
I have to move on!!
I cant just sit here and wait for a miracle!!
I've to get a good job right away!!

I can see my self in the future!!
my future in London!Lolz xd
hopefully :)

all the best for me n for all my friends in E-Lite 2k6 :)
all the best for us, guys!!:D

You Broke My Heart

as my heart grew hope in you
you dropped my spirit down
telling me you just wanted to be friends
broke my heart in two
my bright blue skies crumble
as your figure fade away
the end of my hope to be with you
came along that day
now that you broke my heart
i'm sinking in my pain
and now my skies dark
like my empty black heart
because you tore me apart

Love Me Once Again

I’m sitting here alone,
Realising your gone,
I know I can’t change things,
I know I was wrong.

They all say I don’t need you,
They all say I’m better off,
They don’t understand I love you,
Yet I never said it enough.

I regret what I did,
But I can’t take it back,
Wish I could hold you,
I want you back.

They said I deserve better,
I know I’m messed up,
But I can’t go on without you,
I miss you so much.

I didn’t realize what I had,
Till I lost you,
My heart bleeds inside,
I can’t forget you.

I know I said it before,

Love me once again,
Tell me everything’s alright,
Tell me it’s not the end.

Impossible

Time goes by…

Days by days…

Minutes by minutes…

I wish I could hold you now…

I wish you can hear my voice…

Feel you were here…

Feel me waiting for you…

Though I knew you won’t be here…

You will never come to me…

All I want is impossible...

Coz I know you are not real…

Still Miss You

sitting lonely again,
thinking bout the way it has been
thought it was love…
though it was true…
then a name came out the blue,
i asked and asked what was his name, then a look of shame,
i asked do you feel the same,
you replies no, as tears fell from my eyes
how can you feel this way after this long?
i loved you from the bottom of my heart
how can you take it and tear it apart?
so now what, what can I do, nothing, but sit here and miss you.

We Are Meant To Be

Your all that I want with me.
Its just you and me in this world meant to be.
I don’t want no one with me,
If we are not meant to be.
Your all my heart has room for me because it’s meant to be.
All I want to be is going for you and me.
So please don’t ever tell me that we can’t be,
Because I’m missing everything that we use to be.
So I’m praying you come back to me.
I know we are meant to be.

London...??

I really wanna go to London!!can my dream be real??when will that gonna happen??
hmm...I must be very patient...
I'm sure that someday my dream will come true...
'n I will live my life there...starting a new life with new neighbors...hehe

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Here lays my heart,
All broken and torn,
There are no feelings left in it,
For me to mourn.

Here lays my mind,
Which has repressed,
All the memories we have shared,
That have left me a mess.

Here lays my soul,
Which you took away,
Along with my faith and trust in you,
That you broke in a day.

Here lays my body,
All fragile and left to die,
I hope that I can get through this,
And find another guy.

I DID IT!!!

finally!!!i did it!!i can pass my thesis' presentation!!
im so happy...even though i have to revise my thesis, but i graduate instead...:)
i know i can do that...:)
now, im just waiting until my dream comes true...of course before that happen, i have to find a job...:p
but still, I DID IT!!!!

What Love is...

Love is not a color,
Love is not a game,
Love is just a feeling,
Love is really lame.
Love will make you smile,
Love will make you cry,
Love will make you confused,
Love will make you ask why,
Love can be a good thing,
Love can really suck,
Love depends on your lover,
Love is good or bad luck.
Love is really stupid,
Love makes me wanna die,
Love will come to an end,
Love will then make you cry.
Love has no point,
Love is just pretending,
Love is what I hate,
Love has no freaking ending.

Love can...

Love can sometimes be fresh.
Love can sometimes be new.
Love can sometimes make you happy.
And sometimes make you blue.
Love is the light that radiates from your eyes.
Love is your image floating in the skies.
Love is true.
And dear, the only love for me is you.

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How can I live like this,
I hate the world,
The world hates me,
The world does not care,
No one cares about me.

I love him,
He does not love me,
I hang my head low,
For the time is near,
I wish to tell him the truth.

I have spilled my guts to him,
He does not listen,
Why does no one stop me,
I love him no more,
He has never loved me.

I hate It...

I hate you so much it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme

I hate it…

I hate the way you were always right
I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you were not around
And the fact that you didn’t call

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all...

hmm...
my waiting for this four years is soon accomplished...
my session will be coming...
i can't hardly wait for that day...
i'm sure i must be so nervous...
but i have to be sure too that i can do it!!
i have to prove to my family that i'm good enough...
then after that i have to be independent and reach my dreams...
i wanna get out of this house and be survive alone...
i don't want anybody to command me...
i have my own role and my own life...
so...
here it is...one day for four years!!!
hmmm...please hurry come!!!:)

Lost Without You

I’m so in love with you that I can’t be without you because I’m lost without you.
I have been dreaming for the day you decide to come back but I know deep down this is only a dream.
I keep holding my head just to watch as my whole world comes crashing down around me.
I don’t know when I have ever felt so much pain before.
I can’t even get you out of my head because I’m so in love with you that I’m lost without you.
I have cried so many days and nights away that this is all I know to do.
I’m not willing or ready to give up and walk away.
You’re the only one I want to give my life and my heart too and my feelings will never change.
I’m not sure how you have those girls heart but it’s all yours.
I’m just so in love with you that I can’t be without you because now I’m lost without you.

It's You

It’s you I love,
Yet, you’re never there,
I wish I could see you,
But you don’t even care...

I miss you tonight,
I miss you today,
Tell me you love me,
Like you always used to say...

When I heard that you ran off,
I couldn’t believe my ears,
I ran up to my cold room,
And let out my tears...

You told me you loved me,
But now you ran away,
All the lies you said to me,
I trusted everyday...

I miss you tonight,
I miss you tomorrow,
Now it’s your heart,
I need to borrow...

Only because,
I want to rip it apart,
If only you hadn’t left,
If only you didn’t depart...

But it’s to late,
But I still miss you,
Remember this my love,
I truly love you...

You Have Broken My Heart

you have broken my heart...
with false promises...
you are so cruel!
you are such a liar!
even though my heart is broken...
it is healing the wounds...
you have inflicted on my dedication-life...

Silent Tear

yesterday I cried a silent tear for fear of losing you...
today I cried a silent tear because you left my heart behind...
tomorrow I'll cry a silent tear because I'll be getting over you...